Talks that scare you ..

Talkin to tabbi on the weekend left me wondering if all was right with me ....why do i end up doing the "things a woman must not do /Not say" ...was seriously sumthing wrong with me .. why havent i had any Guy in my life ?? Its not like i dnt get any chances ..life did give me situations where i cud have let gone and did things i wud not have regretted otherwise ... Do i have to write a book on what not to do ..by looking at the things i have done .....I dont like being called SAINT for christ sake !! I wanna be da WILD DEVIL