Lifee far away from home

Aftr all the frustration and the fight with managers to allow me to get out of the project ..I finally land in the landd of Opportunities -America ...Coming to this place i fet a wee bit lonely ...but thenn after making fnds here felt pretty much at home ...i miss my family ..my husband terribly ..looks like i needed this one to realise how much each of them mean to meand how hopelessly i miss them and how much i lovee them .This is an experiencee of a life time to remember the kinda plp u come across and how they take advantage of you if you shut ur mouth ..many things were new to me coz i never had stayed away frm hme .haaan i mustt tell this one i learnt cooking ..rite from making poori sabji to making idly rite from scratch . made a whole loatts friends here ..nicee guyss ...and the picnic we had was soo muchaa fun !! dnt feel like it was new and different ..felt like i have been staying here for a long time ;) ..Im gladd im going back to the people who love mee :)

Mahiyaaa

I wish u cud see urself the way i see ya ...u shine just like the star mahiyaaa coz ur my only pyaar mahiyaa

maine tujhko yeh dil mein basaya tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaaaa..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiya

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

Why dont u temme mahi ma memoriessss... how do u wish to see the loyalty in me
apni wafa ka ikrara kya karoo ..mar javu tujhko jo dilse juda jo karu .

tune aise ada se mujhko dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

mahiyaa..u i set my soul on fire i felt just like a rose mahiyaa..when i was in ur arms mahiya

I cant imagine life without u where i'd be.. i am ur lady i'll go where ever u take me

Tere bagher jeene ki khwahish nahi..main teri saath hu .. le chal mujhko kahi

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai hamera pyaar mahiyaa

mahiyaa..u i set my soul on fire i felt just like a rose mahiyaa..when i was in ur arms mahiya

i dnt care where we go where we stay or what we do..i'll take ur pain as coz i love u

jaise bhi haal mein rakhoge mein rahu dukh bhi mile toh pyaar me haske sahu

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

I wish u cud see urself the way i see ya ...u shine just like the stars mahiyaaa coz ur my only pyaar mahiyaa

maine tujhko yeh dil mein basaya tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaaaa..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiya

mahiyaa..u i set my soul on fire i felt just like a rose mahiyaa..when i was in ur arms mahiya

THE PAIN -THE AGONY - OF THE BREAKUP

This kidd whom i saw since she was 2 yr ..today was talking to me of leading a FORCEFUL LIFE ..Said she was depressed to the core and felt cheated ...I felt so guilty mabbe i sudve given sum advice ...I sudve stopped but i thought it was the age and she wudnt listen to me ..i thought i was a loser and cudnt find a guy for myself ... Wonder why the gals become soo seriouss abt guys ..tht toooooooo soo very serious that they feel bitter at the end of it ...

I feel so helpless ..i feel veryy sad ...i feel like a totol goner ...coz i cant do any damn thing ..I dnt think i even know what she is going thro

:) A year after

I know im pathetic at writing day to day stuff ..But forgetting your own blog name is sucha lame excuse to give for not writing for sucha long time ..been a Year hmm loadsa stuff happening with the poor soul who was once cribbing of having no Soulmate ...yeah met a guy last year

THo i did meet this guy on April 23 2006 , i refused to mention him in my blog thinking he would be one more looser i wud meet and then its all waste of time and my typing effort ...but there ..i was wrong ..i met this guy whom i thought was okay coz he refused to open up ...i dnt really have an opinion on this guy to even deciede on anything ...he said "YES" and i too did ..but then was soo worried if the decision was rite or not ...i still dnt have an opinion ..we met once and he mentioned abt all the stuff that he thought i need to know ( mabbe this was the trick he used to lure me ;) ) ..IT WORKED !! and i did fall for it ...I started developing respect for this guy ..whom for the first time i thought looked so Handsome ..and when he said that he loved me ..swearr my heart skipped a beat ..ours was a long courtship , say 7 months ..yeah it was indeed longgg considering normal indian courtship being not more than a month after which the couple would have to get engaged atleast ...this period was tough coz 3 months he was in US for an assignment and it used to be 1-2 hrs of conversation thro phone ...where i wud talk for everrrrrr n everrrrrrr ....sometimes i wonder what would i have done if i hadnt met this dude ...Goshh soo tough to imagine coz inspite of all shitt ( yeah u cant expect everything to be as perfect as a fairy tale -SHIT happens !! ) i dnt feel any pain ...coz of the love i have for him ...I never knew i was hoplessly romantic ...Our marriage went off really fine ..as perrrrrrrrfect as it couldve been ...I dnt really realise that i was getting married felt like a dream -- Psstt: i did manage to pinch myself to really know if i was actually getting married ....
Whole stuff was fine UNTIL ..SHIT happened ..It was SOO DAMN SHITTY ....That i dnt even wanna start abt it ..will not forgive the person for making it soo damn tough for me ...The onlyy thing that kept me going was MY HUSBAND !! ...
Life started changing - not interms of anything but our weekend mushy time started cutting down ..there was literally no Private timee ..coz of the SHIT
Apart frm my marriage n married life ....There were certain happenings around me that really got me scared ...for example every other person i knew had a problem with their marriage
Gotta know thro B abt the stuff she was going thro ..the kinda person that she was and the kinda fun she had had ....but with due respect i never hope / wish sucha thing to happen in any gal's life ..hrd her hubby was damnnn sick fella who wud abuse her , check her pvt mails n wht not - felt terrible ....really sad for the gal ..hope good things happen to her faster ......
I also hrd frm poo abt p's life felt so helpless ...thr was literally nothing tht i cud do to help her ..really NOTHIN ..this was pathetic and i was here cribbing for no reason at all
Poo was here for a brief 3 weeks period... I HAD A BALL !! kept torturing her ..laughed at all the old times we had together .,..visited casablanca and Hogged and remembered all the silly stupid things ..danced to LAree chotee hahahaha ..gosh sometimes i wish we never grew up !!
Orkut - This is one channel where i end up keeping in touch wid all my fnds :) ...this ye i ended up finding all friends from SCHOOL Krishna prasad, rajat ,Kedar , mallikarjun , meghana, sowmya , ashwini ...felt nice to see all of them after nearly 8 years !! most of them were married ..most of the gals were in the process of delivering babies ..goshh ..it sent a chill down my spine last i remembered was we were such small kids with pony tails and now they were grown up suddenly and delivering babies !!