Lifee far away from home

Aftr all the frustration and the fight with managers to allow me to get out of the project ..I finally land in the landd of Opportunities -America ...Coming to this place i fet a wee bit lonely ...but thenn after making fnds here felt pretty much at home ...i miss my family ..my husband terribly ..looks like i needed this one to realise how much each of them mean to meand how hopelessly i miss them and how much i lovee them .This is an experiencee of a life time to remember the kinda plp u come across and how they take advantage of you if you shut ur mouth ..many things were new to me coz i never had stayed away frm hme .haaan i mustt tell this one i learnt cooking ..rite from making poori sabji to making idly rite from scratch . made a whole loatts friends here ..nicee guyss ...and the picnic we had was soo muchaa fun !! dnt feel like it was new and different ..felt like i have been staying here for a long time ;) ..Im gladd im going back to the people who love mee :)

Mahiyaaa

I wish u cud see urself the way i see ya ...u shine just like the star mahiyaaa coz ur my only pyaar mahiyaa

maine tujhko yeh dil mein basaya tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaaaa..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiya

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

Why dont u temme mahi ma memoriessss... how do u wish to see the loyalty in me
apni wafa ka ikrara kya karoo ..mar javu tujhko jo dilse juda jo karu .

tune aise ada se mujhko dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

mahiyaa..u i set my soul on fire i felt just like a rose mahiyaa..when i was in ur arms mahiya

I cant imagine life without u where i'd be.. i am ur lady i'll go where ever u take me

Tere bagher jeene ki khwahish nahi..main teri saath hu .. le chal mujhko kahi

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai hamera pyaar mahiyaa

mahiyaa..u i set my soul on fire i felt just like a rose mahiyaa..when i was in ur arms mahiya

i dnt care where we go where we stay or what we do..i'll take ur pain as coz i love u

jaise bhi haal mein rakhoge mein rahu dukh bhi mile toh pyaar me haske sahu

tune aise ada se mujhe dekhaa dil ho gaya nesaar mahiya ..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaa

I wish u cud see urself the way i see ya ...u shine just like the stars mahiyaaa coz ur my only pyaar mahiyaa

maine tujhko yeh dil mein basaya tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiyaaaa..tuhi hai mera pyaar mahiya

mahiyaa..u i set my soul on fire i felt just like a rose mahiyaa..when i was in ur arms mahiya

THE PAIN -THE AGONY - OF THE BREAKUP

This kidd whom i saw since she was 2 yr ..today was talking to me of leading a FORCEFUL LIFE ..Said she was depressed to the core and felt cheated ...I felt so guilty mabbe i sudve given sum advice ...I sudve stopped but i thought it was the age and she wudnt listen to me ..i thought i was a loser and cudnt find a guy for myself ... Wonder why the gals become soo seriouss abt guys ..tht toooooooo soo very serious that they feel bitter at the end of it ...

I feel so helpless ..i feel veryy sad ...i feel like a totol goner ...coz i cant do any damn thing ..I dnt think i even know what she is going thro

:) A year after

I know im pathetic at writing day to day stuff ..But forgetting your own blog name is sucha lame excuse to give for not writing for sucha long time ..been a Year hmm loadsa stuff happening with the poor soul who was once cribbing of having no Soulmate ...yeah met a guy last year

THo i did meet this guy on April 23 2006 , i refused to mention him in my blog thinking he would be one more looser i wud meet and then its all waste of time and my typing effort ...but there ..i was wrong ..i met this guy whom i thought was okay coz he refused to open up ...i dnt really have an opinion on this guy to even deciede on anything ...he said "YES" and i too did ..but then was soo worried if the decision was rite or not ...i still dnt have an opinion ..we met once and he mentioned abt all the stuff that he thought i need to know ( mabbe this was the trick he used to lure me ;) ) ..IT WORKED !! and i did fall for it ...I started developing respect for this guy ..whom for the first time i thought looked so Handsome ..and when he said that he loved me ..swearr my heart skipped a beat ..ours was a long courtship , say 7 months ..yeah it was indeed longgg considering normal indian courtship being not more than a month after which the couple would have to get engaged atleast ...this period was tough coz 3 months he was in US for an assignment and it used to be 1-2 hrs of conversation thro phone ...where i wud talk for everrrrrr n everrrrrrr ....sometimes i wonder what would i have done if i hadnt met this dude ...Goshh soo tough to imagine coz inspite of all shitt ( yeah u cant expect everything to be as perfect as a fairy tale -SHIT happens !! ) i dnt feel any pain ...coz of the love i have for him ...I never knew i was hoplessly romantic ...Our marriage went off really fine ..as perrrrrrrrfect as it couldve been ...I dnt really realise that i was getting married felt like a dream -- Psstt: i did manage to pinch myself to really know if i was actually getting married ....
Whole stuff was fine UNTIL ..SHIT happened ..It was SOO DAMN SHITTY ....That i dnt even wanna start abt it ..will not forgive the person for making it soo damn tough for me ...The onlyy thing that kept me going was MY HUSBAND !! ...
Life started changing - not interms of anything but our weekend mushy time started cutting down ..there was literally no Private timee ..coz of the SHIT
Apart frm my marriage n married life ....There were certain happenings around me that really got me scared ...for example every other person i knew had a problem with their marriage
Gotta know thro B abt the stuff she was going thro ..the kinda person that she was and the kinda fun she had had ....but with due respect i never hope / wish sucha thing to happen in any gal's life ..hrd her hubby was damnnn sick fella who wud abuse her , check her pvt mails n wht not - felt terrible ....really sad for the gal ..hope good things happen to her faster ......
I also hrd frm poo abt p's life felt so helpless ...thr was literally nothing tht i cud do to help her ..really NOTHIN ..this was pathetic and i was here cribbing for no reason at all
Poo was here for a brief 3 weeks period... I HAD A BALL !! kept torturing her ..laughed at all the old times we had together .,..visited casablanca and Hogged and remembered all the silly stupid things ..danced to LAree chotee hahahaha ..gosh sometimes i wish we never grew up !!
Orkut - This is one channel where i end up keeping in touch wid all my fnds :) ...this ye i ended up finding all friends from SCHOOL Krishna prasad, rajat ,Kedar , mallikarjun , meghana, sowmya , ashwini ...felt nice to see all of them after nearly 8 years !! most of them were married ..most of the gals were in the process of delivering babies ..goshh ..it sent a chill down my spine last i remembered was we were such small kids with pony tails and now they were grown up suddenly and delivering babies !!

Would you Hurt ??

I see how complicated the 4 letter word love is !! I donno if i would love sumone soo much that i would wanna hurt him if he ever turns against me ..I guess not ..I wud be like "whatever "Tell all my fnds how happy i am that i am off him ..I wud call him names ..and then juss let goo than thinking of Really causing him to loose out on his job / Hurt him soo muchh that he wud hate to even think i ever existed ...it was really a sight to see T describe abt his love towards the woman who back stabbed him ..he was sooooo out to take revenge and make her life miserable ..felt bad to see the way he was obsessed ..and i thought all these obsessions exist in Hindi cinema -Duh !! ...this is a crazy little world where people are juss not sure of anything.. all they wanna do is juss have sum fun ..I donno to what extent but thennn ...the whole thing is soooo very wierd !! I thought love is sharing and loving and juss letting the other person do what ever he/she wishes never having to ask questions but getting answers to them even before u wanna ask ..How beautiful it wud seem if this is love ..Do i sound like the wannabe author of sum M n B book ?? Trust me its been quiet a long time since i read sucha buk and derived any kinda romantic BULLSHIT ideas from it ...ive learnt it the hard way that there is no SUCH thing as TRUE LOVE ...it is the age that makes us have mixed feelings and we react to it in a particular way and think we are in LOVE.. I did try telling T that its not right to hurt sumone if he truly loved ..but thenn who wud wanna listen to da poor soul

ANTI RESERVATIONS AND WHY ??

The article on reservation brought bac memories of my CET days , since when i became ANTI-Reservations ...I remember the whole scene as if it happened yesterday ..Me an Aspiring Doctor was trying my best , hoping and prayin to the god above to ensure i get a free med seat ....and i cud see the number on the board reduce to literally 0 free seats ...my eyes were moist ..i was controlling my tears which refused to be controlled and i broke down !!..My dad trying to consoile me said " Its okayy ..u can get a paid seat( which costed a BOMB ) " I wiped my tears and said ..No problem ..I shall become an ENGG ..and earn much more than the docs ( that was the only consoling mantra I have even to date ) ..i had juss moved outta the CET center ,I bumped into an old neighbour of mine..who was jumping wit joy as she got a free med seat ...when i enquired what her ranking was ...i was shocked ..felt like pulling her hair ...She was 3000 rank Lower than me and she did ended up getting a free seat ..where as me and the remaining 3000 people were juss crying and feeling helpless that we did not get a free seat ..What the hell Happened to Merit >??? watever happened to all the struggle we did ?? the midnite oil we burnt ..damnn I soo hated her and the GOVT support on the reservations ..I swear it was realllllly ridiculous ..i even remember cursing my dad for not marrying a SC/ST ..DANG !!!!!!!! That was really SICK !!

Reservations-Good article

I think we should have job reservations in all the fields. I completely support the PM and all the politicians for promoting this. Let's start the reservation with our cricket team. We should have 10 percent reservation for Muslims. 30 percent for OBC, SC/ST like that. Cricket rules should be modified accordingly. The boundary circle should be reduced for an SC/ST player.The four hit by an OBC player should be considered as a six and a six hit by a OBC player should be counted as 8 runs. An OBC player scoring 60 runs should be declared as a century. We should influence ICC and make rules so that the pace bowlers like Shoaib akhtar should not bowl fast balls to our OBC player. Bowlers should bowl maximum speed of 80 kilometer per hour to an OBC player. Any delivery above this speed should be made illegal. Also we should have reservation in Olympics.In the 100 meters race, an OBC player should be given a gold medal if he runs 80 meters. There can be reservation in Government jobs also. Let's recruit SC/ST and OBC pilots for aircrafts which are carrying the ministers and politicians (that can really help the country.. ) Ensure that only SC/ST and OBC doctors do the operations for the ministers and other politicians. (Another way of saving the country..)

IT was a longgggggg weekend ..was preeti babie's Weddinggg ...was nice ..felt really happy to see her happy and enjoying her DAY !! She defn lukd awesum ..lemme put it in her husband's words .."she lukd ravishing "!!...This whole thing brought bac memories of shetty baby's wedding ...I cant believe its been a yr since shes married ...Time flies !!

So finally i did getta see the KINI boy abt whom our babe was raving abt during college days ..

It was a niceeee weekend ...I really had a gud time ...

continues...

P/Pnm/Vi/Ni : Who is the sexiest gal in our College
Me: ( thinking to myself : They are all so wierd )
P: i think its P Gndi
Vi: No its Smr
Ni: lets have a poll
P/Pnm : wow thats great
Vi ( stops a passer by ) : Dnt u think smr is sexy
Sum dude : NO
Ni : hahahaha I told you
P/Pnm: hehhehehehe
Me ( thinking to myself ..im so glad i am not fnds with these people )

Me: hey hes soo cute mann
P: He is wearing my guys shirt no wonder he's luking good
PS: ya ya ..luk at his shoes those are not his ..
Me: lets all luk at him and make him conscious ...
All in Sync : ya lets do that (the moment he passes by I trip and fall ...and exclaim ..mannnn hess soo good until he doesnt open his mouth )

In da train ...
Vi : I have always wanted to tell u that i have had a crush on you ..you are such a nice gal
S luks at P luking elsewhere and giggling ..
S: I think im sleepy and i wanna sleep now !!

Vi : You know something its growing
Me : what ???
Vi : yeah ...(and walks away)
Me :P, Pnm /Su : He said blah blah ...
Pnm : what does he mean ?? is it *****
P: oooooo PS guess what hapnd ..blah blah blah ..
PS: are u serious ..major man Bitch.. you are happening and all ..
Me : gals stop it ..its soo disgusting ( the next day )
Vi : Im really sorry..u seemed to be upset ..i really dnt mean to upset you
\Me: but what did u mean by saying that ..what is grwng ??
Vi: promise me u wont get upset ? I meant your butt is growing
Me : thank godd
Vi : what hapnd
Me : chuckles ...nothinggggg

The throwball match ..
where is S ??? She is supposed to serve ??
P : Can the extra player play instead?
Me (runs out of no where ) : I am here
P: Bitch why did u get bac so early ..
The captain : where were u
Me : i went to eat candy !!

PS: I love the way u serve
Me : yeah ??
PS: you are my best friend and i dont mind loosing to you
Me : Okay plp i dnt feel like playing ...

PS: i am hungry ..how much money do you have
Me : I have only 20 bucks ..need them for petrol
PS : im thirsty too
Me : lets go to P's house there will be sumthing to eat and juice to drink
PS: not a bad idea

Talks that scare you ..

Talkin to tabbi on the weekend left me wondering if all was right with me ....why do i end up doing the "things a woman must not do /Not say" ...was seriously sumthing wrong with me .. why havent i had any Guy in my life ?? Its not like i dnt get any chances ..life did give me situations where i cud have let gone and did things i wud not have regretted otherwise ... Do i have to write a book on what not to do ..by looking at the things i have done .....I dont like being called SAINT for christ sake !! I wanna be da WILD DEVIL

Inspired by the BABE !!

Reading poo's blog just refreshed my memories of those crazy days ...

P: This is for you i bought similar ones for PS and Myself
Me: Thanx
PShetty : She got u also the similar one ?? She paid 50 Bucks .
Me: are u serious ?P ..How much did u pay for this ?
P: WHY?
Me: I wouldnt pay So much ..(gets up)....Hello Class ...How much do u think this black thread with a bead wud cost ?
Class Gals: 10 Bucks ..sumone says 5 and sum one 2 Bucks
Me : hehehehe our babe pays 50 Bucks for this and Gifts people

A: Luk at those chicks i wanna strike a conv
Me: Are u Nuts ??
A: Hi can you pls let me know the way to JSS College?
Chicks on da bike : go straight -left-st-right
A: Thanks
Me: Hahahahahhaah That was soo sadddd
A: I sud have asked them the direction to MG road

Aftr finishing My exam :
PS: How was it man ?
Me: Got GANG raped
PS : shit ..its okay man sad that u dnt enjoy it !!Me walks further ....
U and V: How was it daaaaa ??
Me: IN CAPS AND BOLD i got RAPED !!
V: almost on the verge on fainting after hearing those words !!

PS( in da BUS) : howz it going on btw ur FRIEND and HIM ??
Me: I donno
PS: Bitch dont lie i know u know a lotta things
Me : why are u bugging me so much ??
PS: I wont give u seat to sit if u dont temme details
Me: okay she spoke to him ..blah blah blah


In F n W classL : what are you doing S ??
Me: totally baffled ..yeah mam...
L: what are you writing
Me : your notes mam
L : P can you pls temme what your Fnd is writing
P : She is writing ur notes mam
( meanwhile my lab record disappears and sumone's notebook is in front of me )

Here again aftr a month

After a month ..I'm here again ...yeah blogging ..after a fnd reminded me ....lemme try recalling wat hapnd in da past one month ..My Pune -Goa-Mumbai Trip (this reminds me that good for nothing ass of a sista of mine hasnt yet mailed me the goa Pics , i really am in love with Goa ...Loved the beaches , walking on the shores every morning and having candle light dinner , watching the fireworks , next to the beach simply beautiful)...The Aussie stuff ( this is something that makes me smile ...thank you god for helping me reach closer to my drmz )..Sushie's Visit ( had a ball of a time talkin to her and spending time wit her ..donno if the decisions she's takin is right but she seems to be confident ..who am i to say anything ?? ...Juss a fnd ) ...pinky's dad ( I was shockd to hear his death , i had dreamt of him in da morning dreamt of meeting him and in da noon i get a call from sunny saying he was gone ..SCARYYYYYYY )...RAJKUMAR's death( entire bangalore stopped for a day ..thanks to anti social elements ) ...CRICKET( yiuppee India won twiceeee and both the matches were awesummmm ) ...wowwwwww a whole lotta stuff to write abt and yeah i forgot to mention abt my worst nightmare thank god for that being juss a nightmare ...boyyyy luking at all the stuff i feel like this was one hella monthhhhh ....ii can juss play cliff Richard's -Let me be the one and smilee .............................

lovee

If you love some one because you think that he or she is really gorgeous ...then it's not love .. it's ~ Infatuation ~......
If you love some one because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you shouldn't ... then it's not love.. it's ~ compromise ~.......
If you love some one because you think that you cannot live with out his touch ....then it's not love .. it's ~lust~......
If you love some one because you have been kissed by him ...then it's not love.. it's ~ inferiority complex~......
If you love some one because you cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings ..then it's not love .. it's ~charity~....
If you love some one because you share every thing with him ...then it's not love... it's ~friendship~...
but if you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when he is stable and you cry for him ... that's ~LOVE~ if you get attracted to three other people but stay with him without any regrets...that's ~LOVE~If you let him go knowing that he has to go but doesn't want to ...that's ~LOVE~

What woman should have -totally love this makes sense

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVEone old loveshe can imaginegoing back to...
and one who remindsher how far she has come...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
>> >>> >..enough money within her>> >>> >control to move out and
>> >>> >rent a place of her own
>> >>> >even if she never wants>> >>> >to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE>> >>> >
>> >>> >..something perfect to wear if
>> >>> >the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an >> >>> >hour...

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE>> >>> >
>> >>> >..a youth she's content>> >>> >to leave behind...

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
>> >>> >>> >>> >...a past juicy enough that
>> >>> >she's looking forward to>> >>> >retelling it in her old age....

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
>> >>> >>> >>> >...a set of screwdrivers,
>> >>> >cordless drill, and a black>> >>> >lace bra...

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
>> >>> >>> >>> >..one friend who always
>> >>> >makes her laugh... and one who>> >>> >lets her cry...

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
>> >>> >>> >>> >..a good piece of furniture
>> >>> >not previously owned by anyone>> >>> >else in her family...

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
>> >>> >>> >>> >..eight matching plates, wine
>> >>> >glasses with stems, and a>> >>> >recipe for a meal that will make
>> >>> >her guests feel honored..

>> >>> >A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE>> >>> >
>> >>> >>> >>> >...a feeling of control over
>> >>> >her destiny...


>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >>> >>> >..how to fall in love
>> >>> >without losing herself...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >
>> >>> >..how to quit a job,>> >>> >break up with a lover,>> >>> >and confront a friend>> >>> >without ruining the friendship...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >>> >>> >...when to try harder...and
>> >>> >when to walk away...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >
>> >>> >...that she can't change the>> >>> >length of her calves, the width
>> >>> >of her hips, or the nature of her
>> >>> >parents...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >>> >>> >...that her childhood may
>> >>> >not have been perfect...
>> >>> >but it's over...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >>> >>> >...what she would and
>> >>> >wouldn't do for love or more...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...>> >>> >
>> >>> >..how to live alone... even if
>> >>> >she doesn't like it...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >
>> >>> >...whom she can trust,>> >>> >whom she can't,
>> >>> >and why she shouldn't>> >>> >take it personally...

>> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >>> >>> >...where to go...
>> >>> >be it to her best friend's>> >>> >kitchen table...or a charming inn
>> >>> >in the woods...when her soul needs soothing...

> >>> >EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
>> >>> >>> >>> >..what she can and can't
>> >>> >accomplish in a day...>> >>> >a month...and a year...
>> >>> >

Reasoning out !!

hmmm....felt awesum opening up to preethi akka abt a whole lota things ...im juss beginning to wonder ..no seriously ..Is sumthing really wrong with me ?? what am i holding back so strong for ?? for whom ? for what ??
well i want to get high on life do all da crazy things ..feel butterfly in my tummy ..sharing ,loving and caring ..but thennn again why dont i juss meet my knight in shining ( shetty ) armour
At times thinking abt him brings tears to my eyes ..my eyes r moist at this minute ..thinking if the man i want and for whom i waited all my life ..if he exists only in fantasy land.
However life isnt all abt Men .. i know we want them ...for various reasons to spoil and pamper and listen to all the stupid things u gotta say ..but there is soo much more to do in life than think abt sumthing that dont exist ..mannnn i so wanna be freee ..flyyyy open n the sky , which has no limits ..on my own ,wanna Travel to a whole lota places ..earn a lota money so that i can spend on the people i care abt and love ...at times it worries to think if money would make me selfish ?? hahaha watever man ...cant believe i wud change to such an extent ..i know what i am ..* A humble human being *...im being way too modest !!
But then my question is how do i mint money ..im sure my company is no way gonna pay me beeg bucks for no reason ...sweetie lemme juss think what i can do ...lemme sleep tonite with this thought !!

Im backkk

Well i had almost forgotten this site and also my blog ....been longggg time since I did write ..me shall pull up my socks and start writing in full swinggggg ....loadsa changes happened in the past one year ..people change ..things change ..i guess i have changed ..ohh wait a minute ..dnt think that has happened i havent yet changed ..gosh when will i leave my " The epitome of sweetness " outluk and turn to the bitchy -attitude-snob that most people at work think i am ...Gosh atleast then i guess i will have guys run behind me ..I read this sumwhere and it is soo damn True " Never let anyone become priority in your life ...that you will remain only an Option in theirs " ...
Trust me guys dont like good gals its only the snobs or the bitches they run behind ...well why am i writing abt men ?????? Dont i have better topic to think of ?? errr ummmmm ..wellllll i do have loadsa other topics . ..likeeeee ..ummm...ME !!!